I know what you’re going through. I know how hard it was to get out of bed this morning and face the day. I know how loud the voices are and how unbearable the anxiety is when you don’t obey them. I know you want to fight, but it’s so much easier to lie in surrender. I know what it’s like to feel hopeless, worthless, defeated. But I have to tell you something.
You don’t have to live like this.
You don’t have to let the number on the scale control you. You don’t have to feel guilty about nourishing your body. You don’t have to isolate yourself because you’re afraid to let the world see you. You don’t have to hide your body behind those baggy clothes. You don’t have to throw up everything you eat. You don’t have to look in the mirror every day and hate what you see.
Recovery is possible. Freedom from your eating disorder is possible.
I know the face of anorexia all too well, but I also know what it’s like to live a free life. And you can too.
Recovery is not easy, but it’s worth it. Every meal you eat is a victory. Every pound you gain is another battle won. Every day you ignore the voices in your head is another step towards total freedom.
This is a fight for your life, so put on your boxing gloves and get ready. You’re going to fall, but you can stand back up. You’re going to take some blows, but you will be okay. You’re going to feel weak, but you’re stronger than you believe. You’re going to be afraid, but you’re braver than you think.
You are worth more than anything this eating disorder has to offer. You are a living, breathing, feeling, human being, and you were created for so much more than this. You are a child of God. He calls you beautiful, righteous, blessed, pure, worthy, lovely, wonderful. Start making decisions based on who you truly are, not who the eating disorder tells you that you are.
Chin up, my dear. You can do this. I promise you won’t regret it.